"Most painfully, I’ve talked about the gay characters I’ve played from a neutral, almost anthropological distance, as if they were separate from me."
"American Crime" star Connor Jessup came out as gay on social media Monday.
The 25-year-old actor, writer, and director posted a heartfelt message to his followers saying he knew he was gay since he was 13 but hid it for years.
“I’m a white, cis man from an upper-middle class liberal family," he writes. "Acceptance was never a question. But still, suspended in all this privilege, I balked It took me years. It’s ongoing. I’m saying this now because I have conspicuously not said it before.”
The Canadian born star says he came out privately to friends and family, but in the public eye he could ever convey how well he connected to his roles.
"Most painfully, I’ve talked about the gay characters I’ve played from a neutral, almost anthropological distance, as if they were separate from me. These evasions are bizarre and embarrassing to me now, but at the time they were natural. Discretion was default, and it seemed benign. It would be presumptuous to assume anyone would care, yeah? And anyway, why should I have to say anything? What right do strangers have to the intimate details of my life?” Jessup asked.
Jessup's dishonesty was personally stifling but he says that will all change moving forward.
“For me, this discretion has become airless. I don’t want to censor––consciously or not––the ways I talk, sit, laugh, or dress, the stories I tell, the jokes I make, my points of reference and connection. I don’t want to be complicit, even peripherally, in the idea that being gay is a problem to be solved or hushed. I’m grateful to be gay,” he wrote.
The actor has had a string of big roles in his career which started when he was 11. He played Simon Atherton in the last season of the Australian teen drama "The Saddle Club," before landing a role in the TNT sci-fi series "Falling Skies" in 2011. He then went on to play a few different roles in the anthology crime drama "American Crime."
Jessup's next big project is Netflix's drama “Locke & Key.”